Friday, April 30, 2004


The only sounds I can hear right now are coming from the fans in my computer and the ceiling fan above my head. My boss kindly gave us all the afternoon off so I've been home for about 30 minutes now.

The restructuring stuff is still in progress right now. We had a big group meeting this morning and found out where we'll all be moving (I found out yesterday that I'd be moving to a new location but wasn't told where until today). I'm really thrilled about where I'm going to be working. It's in the basement of our building but it's a really nice space. It's also toasty warm in the winter and nicely cool in the summer so it should be good. In my previous job I worked in a basement for 8 years and never had a problem with it. After the meeting, we were all taken out for lunch and then were "sprung" for the rest of the day. I didn't know about it ahead of time so I haven't planned anything but right now I'm just enjoying the silence.

It's been a busy week. We're still getting things settled here at home and work's been a bit of a nightmare. I don't know how much longer I can keep up the pace. I actually felt a little guilty about not going back to the office after lunch but I'm over that now. I figured I should take advantage of it while I can, right?

For the past 3 days, I've taken a break from working out. My muscles are still screaming at me from moving the other day and I know I needed the rest. Eating hasn't been perfect but it also hasn't been terrible so I'm not beating myself up over it. I have been finding that I'm really hungry the past couple of days. I'm not sure what's causing it but I've been finding that I'm filling up quickly at meals so at least I'm not over eating.

I suspect that the weekend will be busy around here. We want to get the LOG's wardrobe up and into his room so I can help him finish unpacking. Once that is done, we can take a break. Not sure when this break will happen but we'll figure it out.

Wednesday, April 28, 2004


This morning I just could not work out. I wanted to, I just could not get out of bed. When I did get up, it seemed like I could feel every muscle in my arms and legs. I was stiff and sore and miserable.

Eating today though, very good. I was way too busy at work to eat most of what I brought with me and we had dinner at home tonight so my calories were good.

I hope that this stiffness goes away soon. I realize now how much I overdid it over the weekend. I intend to take it easy over the next few days. I think I'll substitute my regular workout for some nice walks. Right now, that's about the only thing I can do without hurting.

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

oh my aching arms

I know that I've been getting stronger with every week that passes but this weekend was a real challenge. I'm looking forward to getting back to work tomorrow to get a break from all the lugging and slugging that we've been doing around here. While we moved stuff, I noticed that I was able to carry heavier pieces of furniture further than I remember doing for a long, long time. Right now though, my arms feel like wet noodles. I think I may have overdid things a bit but I really wanted to get the best part of the downstairs straightened up.

Today we got the living room and dining room sorted out. My hunny helped me move this huge three piece wall unit into place in our dining room and I had to scrub and dust everything that went into it. We had been using some old shelves in the same spot and everything was pretty grubby. It looks really nice and tidy though. I also rearranged the furniture in the living room. Our LOG has a recliner, which, we had originally planned on putting into his bedroom. It would have been a really tight squeeze with it in there though so we found a nice spot for it in the living room. It's a little cramped down there (my recumbent bike is also there) but it looks nice. It's cozy looking and it doesn't clash too badly with our furniture. Most importantly, he looks really comfy and at home there. One of the big advantages to this is that it's forced me to do major spring cleaning. I hate how, all winter, you think that you're cleaning but, once the sun starts pouring into the house in the spring, you realize that you were just fooling yourself. It's done now though!!

I also managed to get the kitchen sorted out so at least 90% of the downstairs is finished. We still have to get his huge, heavy, honking wardrobe up the stairs but that's going to wait until tomorrow. Once that is upstairs, I'll be able to help him get his clothes unpacked and put away. After the clothes, there is basically 3 boxes of "stuff" to sort through. I know that some of it is kitchen stuff that we wanted and the rest is just odds and ends and papers. This weekend I'm planning to pick him up something to use for his papers and I'll set up a filing system for him. Everything is coming together nicely!

Tomorrow, I'm back to my normal routine (I hope). My plan is to get up and workout first thing in the morning. We picked up some groceries tonight and should be back to our normal food routine tomorrow too. Right now, I'm feeling tired but really good about all that we've accomplished over the past 4 days. 'night all!

Monday, April 26, 2004

not missing in action

I'm still here. I really really am!! I wanted to post a couple of different times over the weekend but never had an opportunity to. We've been really busy this weekend (yes, I'm still on a long weekend -- I booked off today and tomorrow). I wish I could say that we went away to somewhere exotic and sunny where folks waited on us hand and foot. Alas, this was not the case.

If I hadn't mentioned it before, I certainly meant hunny's dad (aka the "Little Old Guy") has moved in with us. We've spent the past several weekends getting the house ready for him. Actually, we've been working on it on and off pretty much since we asked him to move in, last November. We had to empty our guest bedroom, throw out tonnes of junk, finish the renos on our bathroom and add some safety equipment to our shower. The stuff on our end is pretty much done and we've spent the past 3 days moving him. On Saturday, my mum helped me pack up his kitchen. As he won't be needing any of his kitchen stuff, we have donated it all to the Knights of Columbus garage sale that happens at my mum's church. We had so much stuff by the time we were done packing that we filled a full quarter of my folks' huge garage with boxes and stuff.

Tonight, we got his furniture into the house. Much of what he had, he has sold but there were a few large items that he's keeping. He a wall unit in his dining room that we've taken (so tomorrow I'll be emptying our current crappy shelves and moving his into place), he has his bedroom furniture (which is huge and heavy and ugly -- hey, it was bought in the 80's and is faux-wood - not even veneer, it's quite gross but he likes it so....). He's got a new bed on order so he's sleeping on our old bed (it'll get chucked when the new one is delivered). Right now, the house looks like a bit of a disaster but I could actually put my hands on anything he's looking for within 5 minutes, if I had to. Aside from the furniture and a few dishes, he basically had 3 boxes of "stuff" and his clothes. He and I are going to sort through it as we unpack though. I threw a lot of stuff out on his end, I'm sure I'll be able to get him into "clean sweep" fever as we put stuff away.

So, basically since Friday, I've been packing or cleaning or packing and cleaning or moving and packing and cleaning. It's been busy and physically, I'm exhausted. Emotionally, I'm a little nervous. We're giving up some of our privacy in exchange for some peace of mind (he's had some health problems over the past couple of years and it was getting to be a big worry for us, thinking about him living alone). I'm sure it'll all work out, right now, it's just a little tense. We're all tired and crabby. I know after a few days, it'll be fine.

My eating has not been stellar but I'm getting LOTS of exercise. I had a good weigh-in on Saturday, I was down a pound and felt quite good about that. I'll be really happy once the house is settled again and we get into a proper routine again. In the meantime, I'm just happy to not be gaining weight and to be feeling good about myself.

Thursday, April 22, 2004


I just realized that today is Thursday. I can't remember where yesterday went or why I didn't post. It's been that kind of week, the kind of week I just hate.

Tonight, TOM is totally kicking my ass. I was just thinking this afternoon that this month had not been bad at all in terms of cramps (I ordinarily get horrible cramps). Tonight, after dinner, I started to feel totally shitty. I mean, I've been really exhausted all week and today I was moving kind of slow but tonight, blammo, I started feeling yucky in a big big way. One of the nice things about feeling not great is that I haven't had much my eating has been great the past couple of days. I've also exercised every morning this week so far. I know that this morning, the workout helped me feel better, definitely. Right now, sleep and aleve are the only things that I think will make me feel better. 'night 'night!

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

time flies

I'm thinking of little house flies...I'm seeing them wearing watches...they're buzzing around me and making me nuts.

It's been that kind of week this week. In some ways, I cannot believe that it is only Tuesday and in others, I can't believe that Tuesday is almost over. Work just keeps going from insanely busy to insanely-er busier. I don't know when it's going to end quite frankly. I'm still training people and I'm still doing my old job. I've also (just recently) started receiving training on my new job. When I'll be moving into that officially I'm not sure. No one knows really, everything is really unsettled and unsettling. It's stressing me out a fair bit and I know that is why I'm giving in to letting myself over indulge on the weekends.

Last night, after dinner, we had a huge storm. We watched it roll in, quickly, dump a bunch of rain on us and then leave. When it was over, there was the most gorgeous rainbow over our back yard. Funny thing is though, when the storm finished, it was about 18 degrees outside. It was so nuts. I opened all of the windows upstairs to try to get some air into the house. About 1/2 way through the night, the temperature dropped about 10 degrees so we were freezing our butts off by morning. It made for good sleeping though and I really needed it. What with not sleeping much Monday night and TOM due at any moment, I was exhausted.

My workout was pretty good this morning. I've found that I'm not moving as fast as I normally do, the past couple of days, but I'm blaming that on TOM. Once I get into it, the fatigue and cramps will go away and I'll be able to put more into it. Right now, I'm just happy with myself for getting up and doing it every day. When all else fails, I know that I have that part of things down pat. Oh, that and the water. I've had no trouble doing the water thing lately. If I could just get the weekends under control, all would be good I think. I know that it's all attached to what's happening at the office and I'm working at controlling that better. It's hard to not get stressed out about it but I know that I do better on my program when I don't let work shit bother me. It's like a domino effect, controlling the stress makes it easier for me to control the eating and controlling the eating makes me feel better, period. Luckily, so far this week, I'm doing okay. Hopefully it'll finish off as well as it's started. I don't want to go overboard this weekend.

Monday, April 19, 2004

still here

I didn't post this weekend because I didn't have anything to write about. We were really busy working around the house. We put in a new bathroom floor and did a bunch of renovation type things to the room that our little old guy will be moving into. I had hoped to get into the garden but we had thunder showers off and on all weekend long.

Last night I barely slept at all. It was really windy and I think that it must have kept waking me up. I tried and tried to talk myself out of working out this morning but I didn't listen to myself. I gave in and exercised and it did help wake me up. Eating was okay today. A friend took me to lunch today and we had lovely salads and grilled chicken. It was a really nice treat and a great way to start the week.

I want to stay totally on plan this week. My weekend eating wasn't fabulous but it wasn't as bad as it could have been either. This week though, I'm working out every day, I'm going to stick to my guns as far as food goes. I just know I have to because I don't like the way I feel when I don't!

Friday, April 16, 2004

When I woke up this morning, it occurred to me that one of the reasons that I've been so tired every night is because I'm waking up, really early. I mean, like 4 or 4:30 a.m. I don't have to be up and out of bed until 5 or 5:15. I'm guessing it's because we sleep with the windows open and the birds must be singing or something, now that spring is here. I don't mind getting up early too much. It's kind of nice to do a load of laundry or two in the morning while I am exercising and all but, by 7:30 p.m., I can barely keep my eyes open. It's a slippery slope, I know, because if I get really tired, I'm more likely to overeat as an attempt to get some carb induced energy in the evening. I'm not sure how to get around this waking up early thing but at least I'm aware of it now.

I'm struggling a lot this week and I'm working really hard to keep temptation out of my face. Right now, there is a pizza party going on in our office. I'm obviously not there. Ordinarily, I would go to the party but take my own lunch. Today, I'm feeling pms-y and fragile and didn't think that I could trust myself to sit in a room full of pizza, smelling it without indulging. Pizza is absolutely one of my favourite foods but I know that one slice wouldn't be enough food to get me through the afternoon so I stayed behind and ate my healthy, filling lunch. I do allow myself to have pizza once in a while and we either make our own at home or go out and have a small pizza with a large salad. It feeds my pizza cravings and is pretty low in calories (I always have thin crust pizza with veggies and 1/2 the cheese) compared to an extra pepperoni / extra cheese pizza. Hopefully, no one will bring any back from the party. I really don't even want to see it right now!

Thursday, April 15, 2004

I know that it's super early but I'm heading off to bed. I had a horrendous day of back to back to back meetings and I'm so tired right now that my head is pounding and I can hardly see straight.

On the fitness front, I did workout this morning and I ate okay today. I didn't drink as much water as normal but it couldn't be helped, what with the meetings and all. Anyway, to say that I'm looking forward to the weekend would be a huge understatement. Friday night can't possibly get here fast enough for me!

Wednesday, April 14, 2004

ups and downs

So yesterday was going to be a perfectly on plan day, all day, remember? I got up early, I exercised, I ate well all day? Well, all went well until after dinner. After we dropped the little old guy off, we went to Costco to pick up a few things that we needed. Somehow, M&M's cookies got into the basket and, when we got home, we ate a whole bunch of them. I guess it was "justified" as I hadn't baked a cake or anything for my hunny's birthday (it's today -- we were out celebrating with his dad last night). I don't know why it happened. I mean, I wasn't hungry, wasn't really craving anything in particular (we'd had a fabulous dinner) so there is no good reason for it.

When I got up this morning, I was afraid to hop on the scale. When I weighed in on the weekend, I was up a couple of pounds. I figured that by this morning, I'd be up over 10 pounds. I stood on the scale with my eyes closed tightly. Eventually I looked down and saw that I was down to my pre-weekend gain weight. How the hell does stuff like that happen? My rings are almost falling me off today too. It's very odd. I must have eaten 5 cookies last night. How did show a loss this morning?? This afternoon I go for my monthly check in with my doctor. It should be interesting to see what her scales say. Yikes, what a week.

I'm back on track today though. I had a good workout this morning and so far today, I've been eating really well. I plan to keep it up for the rest of the day. I may have to smash up and throw out the rest of those damned (but delicious) cookies when I get home.

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

so far, not so bad

This morning I did not want to get up. Not one bit. I wanted to pull the covers up over my head and stay in bed all day. Sick huh? It's only Tuesday for peet's sake. Today's workout was much more energetic than yesterday's had been. I felt pretty good afterwards actually.

Eating so far today is going really well. Tomorrow is my hunny's birthday and tonight his dad is taking us out for dinner. I know exactly what I'll be having and have the calories all mapped out. I'll be having fish and salad and I'll actually be under for the day if I stick with what I have planned. Over the past couple of week, the planning meals out flew out the window and it got me into trouble. Tonight though, it shouldn't be a problem. I'm not sure what we're doing tomorrow night (his actual birthday) but I'm sure that we can figure out a way for it to be healthy and fun at the same time.

Right now, I'm feeling like I could take a nap. It's contagious though, it's all through the building. The heat is just pumping and that's making everyone drag their butts. I guess I'll just keep drinking lots of water. A full bladder won't let me sleep!!

Monday, April 12, 2004

bouncing back

After sitting down and having a good long chat with myself last night, I admit that I feel better about things today. We just got home from the grocery store and I noticed that everything smelled good (you know that bakery smells that fills the place?), I wasn't tempted. I wasn't even tempted when I saw that the two-bite brownies were on special. By the way, whoever invented them, they should be poked with a stick, hard! We didn't need much, just some fruit and veg and fresh herbs for dinner tonight. My eating has been great all day and I haven't found that I've been killer hungry. Ordinarily I do get hungry mid-morning and mid-afternoon but that didn't happen today. We had dinner at home tonight, stir fried turkey breast fillet with lots of veggies. It was terrific. We're making a very conscious effort to eat at home this week. It's much easier to get off track in a restaurant than it is in our junk-free kitchen at home!!

Work was a bit of a blur. I was in a really long meeting all morning which rendered me brain dead and kind of wrecked me for the rest of the day. Every week, I think that things will settle down this week. Every week I'm disappointed because the days just get murkier and murkier. I never thought that folks could get more stressed than they were in February but it's happening. The restructuring stuff is really taking it's toll. It's tough to deal with, doing all of your regular work, trying to learn a new job and train someone in your old job, all at the same time. It's particularly difficult for me because my boss is no longer working in our office and the person I'm supposed to report to is not around much (because she's in restructuring meetings)'s not pretty. I try to remain optimistic though. I'm looking forward to starting my new job, I'm just not exactly sure when that will be.

I think I'm heading to bed early tonight. We were up a bit later than normal last night so it was kind of difficult to get out of bed this morning. I know that my workout was not the greatest I'd ever done but I was really slow moving for some reason. Not enough sleep is what I'm thinking. Anyway, if you have them to spare, please send your good vibes over Amy's way. She's having her baby today (hopefully)!

Sunday, April 11, 2004

had to laugh

My mum was talking to my cousin on the phone today. My cousin was explaining to my mum how she was doing the blood type diet and she's only eating organic food. She also told my mum that she's become a vegetarian, oh she eats chicken and fish, but she considers this vegetarian (mmm...when I was vegetarian for 5 years my definition was "no food with a face" but, obviously I was wrong). Anyway, she hands the phone over to her daughter who tells my mum how her mommy just inhaled 3 chocolate easter eggs. Wonder which part of them was organic? I mean, have a treat sure, but get down off of your high-horse when you're doing it.

We survived our big family meal. It was really nice and I didn't go too overboard. I did have dessert but just a small amount. We actually spent more time visiting than we did eating. This is a pretty huge deal for my family as it's usually "eat first talk later." I had a great chat with my mum about fitness and health. She's a great seamstress and I've avoided letting her measure me for the past several years. Today I let her measure me again and she was pretty impressed. I also confessed to her (the only person I've told beside my hunny and my doctor) was my starting weight was. She was quite shocked and, when I told her what I weighed right now, said that I did not look like I weighed that much. I told her that recently, I've been feeling really fat again, as if I'd not lost any weight at all. I know that it's psychological but it's there. I keep having to put on my old (fat) jeans and watch them fall down around my ankles. I have to keep taking off my rings (that I once couldn't take off) and putting them on my thumbs.

I've been giving this a lot of thought lately and, although I tell myself this over and over again, I'm really going to work on not obsessing over numbers. I want to break through this stupid plateau that I've got myself stuck in but it's not just because of the numbers on the scale. I want to build more muscle, I want to feel stronger and more flexible. I know that if this happens, the numbers will go down on the scale and that's totally excellent but mostly, I want to feel better. This week, I'm going to get back on track, 100%. I'm going to shake up my exercise program, I'm going to stick to my eating plan. If I do both of these things, I know that I can see results faster than I have been lately.

Part of the reason I've stalled is because of my head cold. I know that. The other part of the reason though is that I've become complacent. Over the past few months, I've learned how to maintain my weight loss but I don't want to maintain anymore. I want to find some of that enthusiasm that I felt back in January. At the beginning of the year, I told myself that I wouldn't let work get to me, that I wouldn't get stressed out over stuff I had no control over, blah blah blah. Obviously, that was easier said than done because I did get stressed out over work (only because I had NO idea how bad things would get) and over stuff that was beyond my control. I need to pump myself up again and get back to challenging myself. I need to sort my head out. I need to re-read Dr. Phil's book and kick myself, firmly, in the ass. I know exactly what I have to do, I just have to do it!

Saturday, April 10, 2004

busy as a little bee

I'm having a very good day so far. I honestly feel like the worst of the cold is behind me. It's down to a bit of a post-nasal drip and a mini-coughing fit every now and then.

I was up very early this morning for some odd reason. We could have slept in but I didn't bother. I got up and started puttering a bit. I'm kind of glad that I got such an early start on the day because now, I basically have everything done that I needed to do today. I had a tonne of errands to do this morning and I beat the crowds as much as I could. I had to go into the bowels of hell (read, trendy-ish west end of town area) to pick up a couple of things at the grocery store, some birthday gifts for my hunny (his birthday is on Wednesday), odds and ends for around the house at the dollar store and a gift for my mum for tomorrow (to thank her for cooking for all of us).

When I got home, it was so nice that I took a walk around the neighbourhood. It was nice to get out and into the sunshine and breathe in the fresh spring air. This afternoon I've been cleaning and doing laundry. I just finished up all of my laundry and cleaning stuff. It feels good to have actually accomplished everything on my to do list today. That hasn't happened in ages and ages.

Tomorrow should be interesting. We are having Easter linner (late lunch, early dinner) at my mum's. I'm not too worried about the meal though. She's cooking a ham but she's doing it with a lot of veggies and I've asked her to not put cheese into anything and she's agreed. We also agreed to not do the easter chocolate thing so I'm not worrying about that. I should be able to keep on track for the whole weekend at this rate. I definitely need to make up for the over-indulging I did over the past two days. I know it's a holiday weekend but I'm not going to allow that to be an excuse to over-indulge for the entire weekend. I keep repeating this to myself over and over in my head and it seems to be sticking. So far, so good!

Friday, April 09, 2004


The relapse I've suffered with my cold isn't as bad as my initial dose but it's making me feel less than happy.

The past two mornings, I've not had any trouble getting up in the morning and I've worked out. It's been a bit tough though. I've really had to push myself to get through them. It's good in a way because I'm finding that I'm really sweaty and feel very much like I've worked hard when I'm done. Eating has not been fabulous but not horrible either. The difficulty stems from having eaten out for dinner both last night and tonight. I made decent-ish choices but ate too much and I know it. Fortunately, I'm not eating all that much during the day but this is not an ideal and I know it.

I'm not really sure what I'm going to do this weekend. We have to go to my mum's for dinner on Sunday but other than that, we have no plans. I had half thought about doing some painting but I know that I'll be lucky to get through my laundry and other household stuff this weekend. I know I need to take it easy and I'm going to.

Stupidly, we had to go do errands last night after work. I could not believe how busy the stores were. It was so insane. You'd think that the stores were closing for a month instead of for just today. Sheesh. We needed to go to four or five different places and only made it to two. By the time we had fought the crowds at both places, and stopped off at the bank, I was so pooped that I wanted to go home. I'm not looking forward to it but I definitely need to do errands again tomorrow. I plan to get up and out of the house early and hopefully beat the crowds, or as close to it as I'm gonna get. It's not stuff that I can put off any longer either so I just need to suck it up and do it.

Ugh. You wouldn't think that a stupid head cold could hang on for so long or be such a huge pain in the ass but hey, it is!

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

blah blah blah

Yesterday didn't end up being the fabulous, perfectly on plan day that I had planned it to be. Ordinarily, I don't set the alarm but, due to the sleeping in problem I had on Monday, I wanted to make sure that I got up early yesterday and I did it. When I woke up, my throat felt like it was full of broken glass and I was all stuffed up again. It was bizarre, it was like I was getting sick all over again. After much nose blowing, before and during, I did manage to get some exercise in. I did feel a bit better for it and carried on with my day.

My eating was good all day but I was feeling weaker and weaker as time moved along. By the time we got home last night, I was feeling crappy and was starving. I ate way more last night for dinner than I ordinarily would have. When I sat down and figured out my calories, I was definitely over what I should have had. I have to admit, I was too tired to really care about it.

Today though, I'm back on track. Still coughing and feeling generally not great but doing okay nonetheless. I did workout this morning and I've eaten well all day so far. I know what we're planning to have for dinner tonight so I shouldn't have any trouble at all keeping to my plan today.

Funny thing is, everyone I talked to yesterday was starving too. Not sure if it's time change related exhaustion induced munchies or what. Fortunately, it seems to have passed.

Monday, April 05, 2004

damn you, time change

I knew that changing the clocks would kick me in the ass. Last night, I was not tired. We vegged out in front of the tube, we watched Arrested Development at 9:30 p.m. (which is ridiculously past our bedtime) and then Extreme Home Makeover from 10 to 11 p.m. I was actually sleepy by 11 p.m. and had a great night's sleep. This morning however, I slept in really late, I had a bunch of stuff to do before work (because we were having our little old guy over for dinner tonight) and I didn't get to workout. Because I had to rush home, make my one dish for the dinner (my hunny did everything else) and the go pick up said little old guy, I couldn't workout right after work. Now, it's 8:30 and I'm pooped and heading to bed. I'm going to definitely get up early tomorrow morning, get my workout in and get back into my routine.

At work today, there was a thank you luncheon for some student volunteers. I don't usually go to these things but I really like the students and felt I should go. The lunch was amazing. I had small amounts of everything and, when I added it all up, it didn't end up being too terrible. Add that to what I just had for dinner though and I'm not sure where my calories will end up. I may have gone over a bit. I can tell myself that it was a special meal for the little old guy (it was our attempt at a Seder for him) but the bottom line was that I ate too much today and I didn't exercise.

Tuesday is another day however. Tomorrow there are no special luncheons planned, no holiday dinners, no reason to sleep in late. I will get up early. I will exercise. I will eat good, healthy foods. No exceptions, no excuses. That's a promise!

Saturday, April 03, 2004

lazy day

I feel rested and well tonight. My hunny didn't work today and we spent an entire day together today, not doing too much of anything at all. We spent the day just vegging out. We watched some TV, we hung out. It was basically a very chilled and relaxing day. We could have slept late this morning but were both up kind of early. We didn't jump up and out of bed like we normally would though which was nice for a change. Our pace lately has been so go-go-go that it was nice to take things slow for a change. Another nice thing was that we're both feeling so much healthier this week than last week. The cold we had/have/are getting over is a nasty nasty bug. It knocked us both totally on our butts. I'm still coughing and it was almost 2 weeks ago that it first hit me.

Exercise-wise, I didn't do anything today. Saturdays are usually my break day and I took today off even though I had only exercised 3 days this week. I noticed that last night, when I got home from work, I was really tired. Not mentally though, it was just that my muscles were tired. I had worked out yesterday morning and I think that by the time we got home last night, my muscles were feeling oxygen deprived. I'm still a little stuffed up and am coughing a fair bit so I know that I'm not getting as much oxygen as I normally would be. After work, we did errands (in the rain) for almost 2 hours. It was after 7 p.m. by the time we got home and we didn't finish dinner until after 8 p.m. This is an extremely long day for us. Through the week, we're in bed by 8:30 p.m. The way my arms and legs were hollering at me last night as I was hauling some heavy stuff up the stairs, I figured that I'd be taking a break today. Tomorrow, if it's not raining, I'd like to take a nice walk outside. If the weather is crappy, I guess I'll just do my normal workout. Now that the weather is finally getting nicer, I'd like to get outside as much as possible.

Tonight the time changes and I'm a little concerned about it. Over the past few years I've noticed that it takes me a couple of weeks to adjust to the time change. It really throws a monkey wrench into my routine and makes my morning workouts more of a struggle. Tonight though, we adjusted our clocks early so hopefully the transition will be easier this time. Eating today wasn't fantastic. I guess it was part of the lazy day we had, part of was the rain. I know I ate too much starchy stuff today and not enough fresh fruit / veg. Tomorrow will be better. I guess I convinced myself I needed a day off from thinking about anything at all. When that happens, I forget about balancing stuff. Chalk it up to the lazies. Tomorrow I'll be back on track, 100%.

Friday, April 02, 2004

I'm not sure what happened to Thursday. I know that work was really super busy yesterday, productive and good but busy. Last night, I had a huge surge of energy and was able to get a lot of stuff done around the house that desperately needed doing. While my hunny was cooking dinner, I started doing laundry and made a first attempt the vacuuming the downstairs. After we ate, I finished the laundry and the vacuuming. I also got the upstairs sorted out and all I have to do this weekend is a little more laundry and the bathroom. Things had gotten really grotty and yucky while we were both sick.

Yesterday was the closest thing to being back to normal that I'd felt in over a week. I got up and exercised yesterday morning. I didn't do a full workout like I usually do but I did make an attempt and felt pretty good afterwards. I think that I may have overdone it a little with the cleaning though because I slept like the dead last night. When I woke up this morning, I felt so groggy and sleepy I almost fell as I made my way to the washroom. I had a lot of strange dreams last night though, I do remember some of that. I almost felt like I'd been drugged, it was very odd.

Today is going well so far, despite the slow start. I had a terrific, almost normal, workout this morning and my eating has been really on track for the past few days. Hopefully I'll be able to continue the good work I've done the past few days over the weekend. Weekend's are always a struggle but I'm going to have to work at not letting them get the best of me. I'm not expecting to see a loss this weekend but I'd really like to see one this time next week. I'm definitely finding it easier to stay in control of things now that I can actually breathe and sleep, go figure huh?