Friday, October 31, 2003

poifectly on plan

So, yesterday was a perfectly on plan day and today is shaping up to be the same. yay! I'm feeling really great despite the fact that TOM is really kicking my butt this week. Last night, after dinner, I felt really crummy but I had a good night's sleep and have been okay today. I'm having a really productive day at work too (which is nice!).

I work in a room with 4 other people. Today, 2 of them are away (one is sick, one is on vacation). A 3 officemate decided to bring in a big ass box of TimBits "because it's Halloween." She's had them on the corner of her desk all day. Now, this person was all pissy earlier in the week because she was up 2 pounds at her WW weigh-in. Eating little balls of fat all day is NOT the way to get those 2 pounds off. Sheesh. She has lost a lot of weight but she lost it quickly and didn't workout so she's really quite flabby. She is obsessing about losing 15 more pounds. I know that if she just picked up some weights and did some serious toning exercises she'd lose the flab and look terrific. As it is, she shops in the "miss" department and none of her clothes seem to fit her properly (she's around 45 I'd say). Anyway, all that aside, bringing a family pack of TimBits into a room for 3 people is just stupid. I've been successful at not having any but I didn't really need this. Stuff like this usually sits down at reception where I don't have to walk by it every 5 minutes!! /rant

It seems sort of weird that November starts tomorrow. I always think about that old Morrissey song "November Spawned a Monster" at this time of year. Hopefully, the monster it spawns won't be a holiday eating machine type of monster. I'll have been at this for 10 months on the 6th of next month. The biggest challenge of the year will no doubt be Christmas. I got through Easter and bbq season relatively unscathed. Hopefully I'll be able to stay strong during Christmas. I'm already planning on doing very little baking. I usually do a lot and give it away but not this year. No one really needs it. I will do some ruchelach for my little old guy but other than that, I don't plan to bake much else. I just don't want to have it in the house.

Hope you all have a very happy Halloween tonight and are able to stay out of the treats!!

Thursday, October 30, 2003

sunshine day

Thank goodness the sun is shining today! We've had a lot of gross, dreary rain lately. This morning, I was away from my cubicle, covering for our receptionist and could actually feel the sun's warm rays on my back while I worked. It was heavenly.

When I woke up this morning I had horrible cramps. TOM had arrived with a vengeance and I felt like crap. Like a good girl though, I did my exercises. I felt like hammered crap while I was doing them but toward the end, my cramps subsided. I had breakfast and my shower and actually felt like somewhat normal when I left the house for work. So far today, I've only had to take one Aleve. Usually, on the first day of TOM, I'm popping them like candy. I actually have an appetite too which is good. I'm just having my lunch as I type this.

Shopping and dinner last night were relatively uneventful, thankfully. We took the little old guy for his groceries, picked up a few odds and sods for us while we were there. I bit the bullet and bought my stuff for Halloween too. I had planned to go out last weekend and find some really fun / cool non-food related item for the kids but didn't get to it because of being laid-up with my back. I ended up buying a box of cheetos and a box of doritos. That gives me 120 things to give out. Now, last year I had more kids that than but not much more so buying a 3rd box would have been way too much. This way, I'll probably run out and won't have any leftovers on Saturday morning (yay!).

You'll note that I avoided buying chocolate. I just can't have those little bars in my house. I can't and I won't! I will convince myself that baby carrots are way yummier! All I can say is thank goodness it's apple season. The local apples are really good (albeit small) this year. They too are a pale substitute for mini-Cadbury bars but what's a girl to do? I'd really like to be another dress size smaller by Christmas...fingers crossed...here's hoping!

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

Two posts in one day! That hasn't happened in a while.

Here's this week's Wednesday Weigh-in:

Do you do better with a structured plan or do you prefer some flexibility in your plan with eating and exercise? What is your idea of a structured and flexible plan? Is there a plan that you can compare it to?

After much reading and research, I devised my plan for myself. From what I see, it's very close to a Weight-Watchers plan. I would have liked to have gone to WW but with the amount of weight that I have to lose, it would have cost me a flipping fortune. The support I needed, I found online. The regular weigh-in, I get at my doctor's office. Neither of these things cost me a dime.

My plan is structured to a point. I keep track of what I eat and what I do (exercise-wise) on Fitday. I limit the amount of calories I take in on a given day. I have goals in fitday as far as total amount of fat, amount of saturated fat and cholesterol. You could definitely call my plan "low fat" because I eat a lot of carbs, fruit, veg, whole grains. I eat lean meat, the only dairy I eat is yogurt (I drink soy milk and have cut cheese almost completely out) and very little bread. The cool thing about what I do is that I don't get hungry because I eat a lot of food in a day but it's good food, healthy, whole food.

The first few months on the program, I didn't allow myself any treats at all. I knew that I had to be really tough to get the crap out of my system If I really need some cheese or bread or chocolate, I get it outside my house and that works for me. I don't deprive myself of anything in particular, I just limit the number of times in a month that I allow myself to have certain things and I definitely have limits on the sizes of portions. Now, 10 months into it, Saturdays are break days. If I'm going to have a treat, it's going to happen on Saturday. I'm not as hard on myself as I used to be because I've figured out (finally, it only took 36 years!) how to balance stuff. Also, if I fall off the wagon, I don't stay off, I get back on.

I allow myself less flexibility with the exercise. I exercise 5-6 days a week because I have to. I actually enjoy it now, my body needs it and I miss it when stuff comes up (Family emergencies, illness) that prevents me from doing it. I never thought that this would happen.

I know that this is working for me because it's customized to fit my life. Because this program is forever and not just until I get to a certain goal weight, I had to keep it flexible or I'd never stick to it.
Thanks for the good wishes and healing vibes. They totally helped, really!

I'm feeling a little less zombie-esque today. I still feel a bit stuffy and achey but nothing like what I was dealing with yesterday. My hunny is all better and back to work today too so that's good. He was feeling well enough last night to actually cook us dinner. It was fabulous, tasty and ridiculously low in fat. Thank goodness we both love to do stir frys or we'd starve. My eating so far this week has been perfectly on plan and I'm really happy about that. I had another great workout this morning and other than that, there's not too much news to report today.

After work, we have to take our little old guy for groceries and we'll probably go out for dinner. I'm going to vote for Swiss Chalet. le Chalet allows me to remain perfectly on plan and still enjoy a dinner out. Other places that he likes to go are dicey at best (Denny's, Montanas, Chinese buffet....). This way, we all get something we like and I can stay on plan easily. Thank goodness for nutritional information on website huh?

By the way, did any of you watch Fat Like Me the other night on ABC? It was a program devoted to childhood obesity. As my hunny and I were both fat kids, we were interested (thanks to Robyn for sending the info out about it on Monday or we would have never known about it!!). We had taped it on Monday and watched it last night after dinner. I was really surprised by how big many of the children were. They featured a program geared toward fat kids and their families that teaches them how to make a healthy home and how to incorporate physical activity into their lives. A lot of what they were talking about is stuff that we've done this year since we started our program. I hope that school districts are able to fund more programs like this because I would have loved to have participated in something like that when I was a kid. Had someone taken the time to deal with the issue as a family problem, just not a "me" problem, I doubt very much that I'd be keeping this particular blog right now, if you know what I mean. If you missed it and notice that it's being rebroadcast at a later date, check it out. I thought that parts of it were pretty interesting.

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

The sickness is in the house.

I'm pretty sure that what happened with my back over the weekend was a deadly combination of a cold and pms. The back pain is gone but my head is kind of stuffy. I've been fighting off something for the past couple of days. My hunny is sick at home right now. He left work early yesterday and stayed home today. His cold is completely in his head and he's been having muscle pain in his neck and shoulder. It's a weird bug whatever it is. Hopefully it'll pass quickly.

Yesterday was a great eating day for me. Kept on plan and we even ate out last night. I took hunny for a bowl of soup at this little Vietnamese restaurant in our neighbourhood. I had tofu and veggies in black bean sauce and it was really yummy. He had an enormous bowl of soup which the waitress didn't think he'd eat but he did. Whenever he gets sick like this, he heads for a big bowl of soup.

Today I'm feeling a little dopey. I've been feeling kind of stupid for several days now, I'm blaming it on germs!! I worked out this morning and really sweated. Profusely actually. It was a little gross in a good way. I think that I may have had a low grade fever or something. My head's a little groggy but I'm trying to keep focused and get fluids into me.

One nice thing about getting a cold / flu bug this early in the season is that I'll (hopefully) be building up immunities to really nasty bugs and won't get sick this winter -- touch wood!

Monday, October 27, 2003

I'm feeling SO much better today than I did all weekend. Whatever I did to my back kind of knocked me out. I mean, I managed to get around and get stuff done over the weekend but I was definitely not comfortable.

Riding the bike yesterday helped to loosen me up a lot. I got back on it this morning too. I didn't touch the weights again today because I don't want to push myself too much. I'll monitor the situation but I'm thinking that tomorrow I'll be able to pick them up again. I just didn't want to twist myself the wrong way and end up back on the heating pad.

Eating was pretty bad over the weekend. As I mentioned yesterday, Saturday was a bit of a wash out. Yesterday started out with good intentions but I ate too much at lunch and dinner. I just felt hungry all day long. Fortunately, I'm feeling better today. More normal than I have in a while. I'm also back on the water again, lots of it. I started that yesterday and am feeling the benefits already. One should never underestimate the power of water and multi-vitamins!!

Sunday, October 26, 2003

I didn't post yesterday because I couldn't comfortably sit in front of the computer for any length of time. I woke up yesterday morning, sort of stiff and sore. The kind of stiff and sore that I get when my back is acting up. I'm hoping that it's just connected to pms and when tom arrives it'll be gone. It's not normally connected to tom but who knows.

I managed to crawl into the shower, get dressed and go out for groceries. By the time I got home I was pretty wiped out. When Mark got home from work, we went to the Asian market for a few things that we were out of. When we got home at 1, I was zonked. I spent the entire afternoon in bed, on the heating pad, watching movies on cable.

I didn't sleep well last night and got up pretty early this morning. I decided that I'd try to exercise and I'm hoping that it's helped. I avoided my weights but I did do a 4.14 mile ride on my recumbent bike. Hopefully my back will loosen up and I'll feel more human today. Eating wasn't great yesterday but it was our break day. I didn't have breakfast and then I had a Harvey's burger for lunch and toast for dinner. Not a fabulous day huh?? Today should be better, back on track. I think I'll go have my bowl of cereal and my cranberry juice, my tummy's starting to rumble. Have a good Sunday all!