Tuesday, August 31, 2004

here! I mean, present!

Thought I'd quickly pop in say hello and not much else.

There really isn't any news to report. Today was Tuesday when I got up, it's still Tuesday now. Wishing myself to be a good writer, someone who has endless interesting things to say and is able to articulate them in a way that is engaging and funny is not going to make it so. I'm trying to keep my head down and stay focused but it's difficult right now.

My recumbent bike started making a funny noise the other day so I haven't been able to ride it the past couple of days. I've been walking outside when I can but it's not the same as getting on that bike first thing in the morning and getting rid of my stress before the day starts. I know that this is contributing to what I'm feeling, partly. I can't really get into what's happening in great graphic detail, not right now anyway.

I'll just leave it at this: stuff is busy and I'm really distracted by things that are a lot more important to me than this blog at the moment. I'm sorry about that. You'll just have to bear with me until my head clears and I have more stuff to say.

I found the manual for the bike and we're going to try to repair it tomorrow, that should help. I really really really need it back in working order, soon. Like before I loose my fucking mind.

Anyway, hope everyone's having a good week so far. Ciao for now.
still here

Thought I'd quickly pop in say hello and not much else.

There really isn't any news to report. Today was Tuesday when I got up, it's still Tuesday now. I'm trying to keep my head down and stay focused but it's difficult right now.

I'll just leave it at this: stuff is busy and I'm really distracted by things that are a lot more important to me than this blog at the moment. I'm sorry about that. You'll just have to bear with me until my head clears and I have more stuff to say.

Hope everyone's having a good week so far. Ciao for now.

Monday, August 30, 2004


I'm tired and crampy and want to go home and crawl under a blanket.

I felt crappy all weekend and as a result, didn't give a shit about keeping on my program. I overate and didn't journal anything. The upside of that is that I really only ate one meal a day on both Saturday and Sunday so I didn't exactly pig out like I would have in the "good old days." I just fell off the truck and into a haze of ibuprofen and unstructured eating.

The upside is that I did some walking on Saturday, did some more today too. Eating is back on track so far today as well and I'm journaling my food intake again. I'm doing it again this week, because I know I have to. Eating healthy foods and exercising is good for my body. It's going to help me meet my long term goals and that's really important to me. I know this, it's the truth. Most of the time this is what keeps me going and I'm grateful for it. I do it because it's a good habit and I'll be happier in the long-run.

It's hard to focus on the long-run right now though. I'm tired and crampy and grumpy and blah. My health is important and I know this. Right now though, at this moment in time, I really wished I cared.

Friday, August 27, 2004


This has been a really long week for me. Work has been the insane kind of busy where you don't stop for five minutes, not even once, and still cannot accomplish anything. I nearly had a meltdown yesterday afternoon I was so stressed.

I know that I'll feel much better about things after today. Today should not be quite so nuts and, hopefully, I'll be able to cross one or two things off of my ever-growing "to do" list. Hopefully.

On the program front, I have nothing to report. Same old boring stuff, today is just another day. I have to admit, everything is just sort of bugging my ass right now, including keep of track of everything I eat and do. I know this is perfectly normal but I feel bad about feeling bad about it. Stupid huh?

Oh well. That's me.

Happy Friday.

Thursday, August 26, 2004

is it Friday yet?

Yeah, I know it's not. It's just been kind of nutso at work this week and I would have really liked to have woken up this morning knowing I only had to deal with one more day of it.

Everyone at work is sick with something right now. One of the students who is working in the room I'm in, has a cold, as does my boss (although she's heading out of town on vacation later today so I won't be around her germs much longer). Another colleague has some mysterious illness, possibly inner-ear related. A third person has pink eye. Fortunately, she's at home at the request of her doctor. Honestly, I don't want to be around any of them right now.

Anyway, eating and exercising continues to be okay this week. Basically sticking to the plan but not feeling overly enthusiastic about anything at the moment. I'm actually feeling kind of crappy right now but I know it's not a cold or pink eye, it's just TOM creeping up on me. Hopefully things will improve as the day moves along. Fingers crossed huh??

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

rumbling tummy

I woke up very hungry this morning. I must have over-ate last night. It didn't feel like I did but dinner was amazing and delicious. The grilled veggies were to die for and, as I expected, everything was covered in garlic. Yum!!

Planning has totally been the key to my success in the past and I expect it will help in the future. So far this week, I've planned all my meals. Tonight will be the only unplanned meal of the week I expect. Typically on Wednesdays, LOG likes to go out for dinner. Depending on where we end up, I should be okay. I am going to veto any votes for buffet this week though. Last week, in my fragile state, I got myself into too much trouble when we did that. It's just not a good idea to put yourself in the line of so many yummy looking things when you're feeling vulnerable.

This weekend, I'm going to plan out my meals too and hopefully that should help. If I can get my eating thing into as much of a groove as I have my exercise thing, I'd be fine. We'll see how it goes, I suppose.

Tuesday, August 24, 2004


I can smell it from here. We're grilling tonight. Well, I say "we" when in actual fact all I will do is eat and do the dishes. My hunny, the chef, is king of the grill. We're having fresh sweet corn, zucchini and chicken. I think a salad might also be in order but it might not. Right now though, the smell of it is making my mouth water. Pathetic huh?? You'd think I hadn't had a cup of green seedless grapes ...wow, I guess that was a couple of
hours ago, nevermind!

Renewed plan is going well so far this week. Eating at home is definitely helping. We had a gorgeous dinner last night too. We had lean pork loin with broccoli, portabello, sweet red peppers in a thick soup with udon noodles. It was great.

Anyway, food aside, the exercise thing is going well too. I've not had any trouble getting up early the past couple of mornings. This is probably because I was up early over the weekend too. I don't foresee any problems for the rest of the week. Unless TOM totally kicks my ass. Time will tell huh??

Hope you're all having a so-far-so-good week too!

Monday, August 23, 2004

monday madness

work = routine

routine = clean eating and much exercise

The weekend was anything but routine and that caused me to fall off the wagon, so to speak. I was weak, I admit it. I want to rededicate myself over the next 6 weeks and stay totally on plan. The exercise thing, I have a handle on. The food part though, has been a little slack recently. Overall, it's not bad but it's also not great. Letting myself have too many treats is not good for the program which is not good for me. I had fresh pasta on the weekend, ravioli no less, with cheese and spinach plus ice cream. It wasn't low-fat ice cream either, it was a real deal premium ice cream bar. It was delicious and I enjoyed it but I really didn't need it, not when I have skinny cows in my freezer.

Oh well. This is all just part of the fun huh?? Once again, I'm brushing myself off and starting all over again. Today is going well so far and I'm going to push myself to get through the whole week, 100% on plan. If I can do that six times in a row, I'll have proved to myself that I can do this. If I don't, there is no way I'll be able to meet my next mini-goal by New Years and I have no intention of letting that happen!

Sunday, August 22, 2004

checking in

I took a break of sorts this weekend. I didn't do any intentional exercise (although I did walk yesterday so I counted that!) and I didn't really keep track of my eating (well in my head, but not on Fitday). I also took a break yesterday from posting. I didn't have much to say so... yanno?

The weekend was very relaxing. I didn't exactly sleep in either days (I was up at around 5:30 a.m. both days -- can't break that weekday habit!) but I feel rested. I got all of my household chores done (including ironing almost everything in my closet -- and I hate ironing!) and did errands too. Because I was "taking a break" this weekend, I didn't bother weighing in. I wasn't feeling good about and the rollercoaster I was on last week couldn't have shown a good result. The safe bet for me was to stay off the scale!!

Tomorrow though, is a new day, new week, fresh start. TOM should be here sometime in the next day or so and things usually get easier once it's here. Overall though, I'm feeling good right now. The rest did me good I think!

Friday, August 20, 2004

finally friday

It seemed to be a long time coming but it's finally here. Ordinarily I don't wish the week away but this week was so insanely busy at work and PMS was being a bastard that I'm happy to look forward to a couple of days off.

Today, the cravings are gone and I've not been having the hunger pangs I'd been experiencing recently. I slept really well night which probably helps. The past two mornings I've been up really early and have had good workouts so that's probably helping as well.

I'll cut this short because I should get back to work (yes, it's still that busy). Happy Friday everyone!!

Thursday, August 19, 2004

pms blues

Not sure what's going on this month, my PMS is not usually this bad. I've been drinking lots of water, eating fresh fruit, exercising, the whole shebang, all week so far. Despite my good efforts to keep my nose clean, I have been experiencing cravings so powerful that I broke down last night and had chocolate covered pretzels. They were really good and super fresh and the salt combined with the chocolate did me a world of good. I haven't been craving anything today so far, I think that the pretzels did the job.

Other than a temporary loss of control last night, the week is going pretty good so far. We did end up barbecuing last night and it was delicious. Tonight we're having salmon and salad which will be really yummy too I'm sure. I'm not too sure what to expect for my weigh-in on Saturday, PMS could really muck it up for me until TOM starts. Goodness knows it's been kicking my ass on many levels all week long.

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

humpity-hump-hump day

As I type this, I'm listening to the "good ribbing" segment on the Al Franken show. Hearing descriptions of different regional types of barbecue is not a good thing when you're hungry. Must be time to eat my lunch!

I survived yesterday without indulging in any Doritos. Denise kindly and smartly suggested that I have 1/2 a small bag of the baked version instead. If I had been feeling stronger that may have done it for me but I wasn't so I just continued to brace myself and when I woke up this morning, the craving had disappeared.

Bringing extra fruit for snacks is helping me out at work this week. I having a small banana mid-morning, a peach with my lunch and some seedless grapes in the late afternoon. Tonight, if the weather holds, we're going to barbecue again tonight. We've got lots of veggies and chicken to grill so I should have no problem staying on plan. Yesterday, while I did avoid the chips, I went over slightly on my intake. We ended up going out for dinner, to a Chinese buffet. Fortunately, they had a lot of fresh veggie dishes out so I tried to stick to those but, I know they cook them with a lot more fat than we do at home so it wasn't great.

Workouts are still going well and I can't believe that it's Wednesday again already. This morning, when I got up, I was moving really slow and had to have a stern talk with myself to get my butt moving. By the time I got on my bike, I told myself, just five minutes today, that's all you have to do...well, five passed quickly, then ten and finally, 20 minutes had passed and my interval was done. I felt better too, definitely more awake. I know that some folks say it's better t0 exercise in the afternoon or evening but honestly, for me, exercise is better than coffee! Hopefully I'll remember that again tomorrow!

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

white knuckle day

I think that PMS is bugging my ass today. It's the only reasonable excuse I can come up with for this weird craving I've had all day long: Zesty Cheese Doritos. Yep, those orange, nasty, stinky chips are all I can think of this morning. Here's hoping that it passes soon. My fat free yogurt isn't really cutting it today.

Last night I didn't sleep well. I kept waking up every hour or so. Eventually, at 3:30 a.m. I got up to pee, thinking that might help. Unfortunately it didn't and I kept waking up every 30 minutes or so. Of course, around 5 a.m. I could have slept for Canada but I didn't, I got up and worked out. The exercise made me wake up, which is good, but between the lack of sleep and the doritos craving, it's not been an easy day so far.

On an up note, my rings are really really loose right now. Not so bad that they'd fall off but they don't really require much effort to be pulled off. It's a neat feeling. I just have to keep thinking about stuff like loose rings whenever my brain tries to tell me that I want those chips!!

Monday, August 16, 2004

happy monday

I know that it's early but so far, my week is going pretty well. I think that I'm going to have a better handle on the eating thing this week than I did last week. I'm not sure what was going on last week but I was hungry all.the.time. When I got groceries on Saturday morning, I picked up extra fruit for snacks at work and it's helping today. Funny thing is, I have extra food with me but I've not been as hungry. I been eating a lot of fresh peaches and grapes lately. I totally get low-carb diets but I don't think I could ever give up fruit. I know it's sugar but it's not processed, white death and it's fresh and gorgeous and delicious.

Yesterday was a break day from exercising for me. We ended up taking a long drive out into the country Sunday afternoon and by the time we got home it was pretty late. All we accomplished basically was eating dinner and then getting stuff sorted out for work this week. My workout this morning felt pretty good and I plan to repeat it every morning this week.

Other than today being totally on plan so far, I have nothing to report. I must admit that boring days like this are far easier to report on then days when I fuck everything up and eat badly or miss workouts. As I've said before, when it comes to this stuff, boring is not a bad thing!!

Sunday, August 15, 2004

sunny sunday

I had a fabulous sleep last night. Thinking back on right now, I don't think I had a great sleep Friday night, or Thursday night either for that matter. I remember that I had a lot of strange dreams both nights and that's never restful. Also, last night when I was washing my face and getting ready for bed, I noticed that I had some dark circles under my eyes. The circles are gone now which is a good thing. I honestly don't think I even moved last night, from the moment I put my head down until I woke up about 45 minutes ago. I feel terrific this morning so I must have slept well.

That one little pound I lost this week has been on my mind a lot. It seems silly to be so happy for such a small loss. A loss I know could have been larger if I hadn't been mucking about over the past couple of weeks. It's amazing though how little losses like that can add up to big changes. The other day, for example, I wore a top to work that my mum had made me for my birthday. When she first gave it to me, it was way too big. She had used old measurements to make it with and it was a real eye-opener for both of us when I tried it on. It looked like a tent on me. She took it in and I wore it for the first time on Wednesday. It felt really good on and I think it looked pretty good too. It made me realize though, how shabby my wardrobe is getting. I hate to think about pulling my winter stuff out again but I know I'll have to do it again in a month or so. While I've lost enough to make a small difference, it's not enough that I need to go out and buy a new wardrobe although I probably should. The number of items I have which still fit properly is getting smaller and more worn. While I can still technically wear the too big stuff, it doesn't feel that great to be doing that anymore.

A while back, there was a thread on the Weigh-Better board (which, if you aren't a member of already you should join -- a more inspiring and wonderful group of women you will not find anywhere!) about how to get your wardrobe through in-between stages. Many of the suggestions were fabulous, having your stuff altered, shopping at thrift stores and online auction sites. These terrific suggestions though, don't really apply to me. Although I'm 78 pounds down from where I started, I'm still at a size that you just don't find in thrift stores. Lucky for me, my mum is a fabulous seamstress so I could ask her to help me out and guide me through some sewing, to make some new outfits and alter some things I do have. I guess I'm just moaning because I'd love to be able to go into a store and buy a totally new wardrobe but, at the moment, that's out of the question. I just cannot afford it.

Please note though, I'm not complaining. Everyone just needs a little whine once in a while right?? Trust me though, I'd much rather be whining about not being able to afford smaller clothes than about not being able to afford larger ones!!

Saturday, August 14, 2004

productivity plus

Holy smokes I got a lot of stuff done today. The largest chunk of it I finished before noon. Never underestimate the power of having fabulous sex early in the morning!! It can totally jump-start your day!! I had done groceries and finished two loads of laundry before 10 a.m. By noon, I had done 2 more loads of laundry, changed both beds, scrubbed the bathroom and dusted and vacuumed the upstairs. I even got some walking in this afternoon.

It feels great to have accomplished so much. I honestly thought that I'd spend a good chunk of tomorrow doing chores but it looks like I'll be able to spend the time puttering in the garden and just enjoying the nice weather. What a switch compared to our usual weekends.

My official weekly weigh-in was this morning and I'm happy to report I'm down another pound. Actually, happy doesn't begin to describe. To show a loss after a week after my vacation is amazing and I'm totally thrilled about it. That brings my total loss to 78 pounds since January 2003. I know that is sort of slow compared to how quickly some folks seem to be losing but I think that this pace is going to work out better for me in the long run. I have sooo much to lose that I'm afraid that I'll have major loose skin issues if I was losing it any quicker than I am. My mini-goal right now is to lose 22 pounds by the end of this year and bring my total pounds lost to 100 pounds. Right now though, I'm content with my one pound loss this week!!

Friday, August 13, 2004

happy friday

yanno...it's actually cold here today. Chilly and damp I guess. It's weird. Ordinarily I bitch and moan about the heat and humidity all summer but this year it's actually not been overly hot or humid.

Looks like I will survive my first week back to work. It's been hella busy though. We've got events going on, on the road all over the country (and even one in Hong Kong), starting this weekend so there is a lot of stuff going on in terms of getting things ready to go with the speakers as well as making sure that everything on our end is organized. We're also "tweaking" our recent restructuring. This should be good for me in the long run but at the moment, with everything else that is going on, it's hard to get my head around. I'm not stressed though so that's something huh?

Looking back on this week, my exercise has been really excellent. I've made a point to really put more into my workouts this week and I always love the "strong" feeling I have when I do. Eating could be better but it's not been too terribly bad. Not sure what the scales will say tomorrow. No.clue.at.all. I have a lot of stuff I'd like to accomplish at home this weekend so hopefully that will keep me too busy to snack. Why, oh why, must weekend's be such a struggle? anyway, I'll keep my fingers crossed for you if you keep your crossed for me...hey, actually, it's hard to eat with crossed fingers!! That might work!!

Thursday, August 12, 2004

so very hungry

All day yesterday, no matter what I did, I was hungry. It was the darnedest thing. It's been happening today too, but to a much lesser degree. I'm pretty sure that the hunger is routine related. Last night, after I'd eaten my quite large supper, I was still hungry. Even after that 20 minute period that you sometimes need for your stomach to catch up with you. I ended up indulging my hunger with lots of water and some oatmeal raisin cookies that LOG had in his stash. Dipping into his cookie stash is something I never ever do. At least I only had 3 and they were free of that dreaded transfat (hey, if I have to buy him cookies, at least I'm going to buy him reasonably healthy ones).

Today is going much better than yesterday and I doubt very much I'll be having any cookie attacks again tonight. This morning I woke up extra early because I thought I'd have to drive my hunny to work. Once I got downstairs, I discovered that I wouldn't have to do I ended up getting some laundry done before work (in addition to working out). It was the first time in ages that I've been able to get anything beside exercising in the morning so that felt kind of good. I'm going to try to get up a little earlier every day. I've gotten into some bad habits lately and I've been really pushing the clock to get everything done each day. I really like starting my day with a more relaxed pace that that.

The back to work thing is going well too. The nutty pace continues but it's a good nutty. I'm really feeling like I'm getting into a groove and am being more proactive than reactive and that's a very very good thing! The less time I can spend in my life feeling like a headless chicken, the better!!

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

hump day

Day two is going well so far. What is it about that second day back in the office that makes your vacation feel like it was months ago instead of just two days ago?

While I was off, I had a chance to catch up on a bunch of tv programs that I'd tivo'd. One of them was E-Love. The premise of the program is that a film crew interviews a couple who have met online but who not yet met face to face. Through the course of the show, they will meet up and see how it goes. In the particular episode I saw, a woman from San Francisco was meeting a man from NYC. He was flying to California to visit her. He seemed like a nice guy, he was a bartender. She also seemed quite nice, she was a musician. Anyway, one scene in the program was this guy hanging out with his buddies in his apartment before he leaves for California. The buddies are asking him all kinds of silly questions about her, about him, about what they will do when they get together, etc. One guy asks how tall she is and how much she weighs. Apparently, she's 5'7" and weighs 130. I must say, when I saw her I thought she was in terrific shape. She was tall and had a very slim figure. Anyway, the buddy says, "well you better be careful, a buck-30 on a girl who is only 5'7" is pretty heavy." My jaw hit my chest. What the hell was this guy talking about? Now, I know he was in his early 20's and, let's face it, guys at that age are pretty stupid when it comes to women (generally) but still, she was not fat. Not even close. Fortunately, the guy in the documentary just ignored his friend's stupid comment but it stayed in my head for days after I'd seen it. Hearing crap like that made me more grateful to be in a mature relationship. What a shallow jerk! No wonder some women have such fucked up body images. If you seriously had to listen to crap like that all of the time it would drive you insane. grrrrr!!

Eating and exercising is continuing to go well so far today. We had a great dinner at home last night, ground chicken, portabello, tomato with pasta. It was delicious. For the first time in a long time I even had a little goat cheese on it. I didn't realize what a difference eating on a schedule makes to my energy levels. Last week, my schedule was all over the place and so was I. Yesterday though, I felt great all day and today, same thing. Today I'm feeling a little more hungry than normal but I just ate my lunch so hopefully that feeling will go away. I just hate days like this, days when you're trying to be good and your tummy keeps rumbling, no matter how many carrots or how much water you give it. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it'll go away soon, it's going to be a loooong afternoon if it doesn't!

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

working it out

Today I'm back in the office. Things aren't totally nuts today. Luckily I only had one meeting booked for today so I'm slowly sifting through emails and trying to catch up on all of those little things that pile up when you've been away.

This morning I was back totally into my normal exercise routine. I've been doing a lot of walking outside lately and that has felt really good and everything but I really love my bike. This morning I had an excellent ride and felt terrific afterwards. Also, I hate my breakfast at my usual time, all healthy and balanced and as I type this, I'm nibbling on my low fat lunch. I've taken my vitamins and I'm drinking lots of water today. The rested feeling is still hanging around too. Last night I slept like the dead and had no problems getting up this morning. Tonight we've already planned what we're making for dinner and I expect that we'll be having an early night again.

I know it's only Tuesday and I've been back at work for half a day but, so far, it's all good. I wish I had more to report right now but that's the boring, but good, news for today.

Monday, August 09, 2004

easing back into it

Today is the last day of my vacation. I took the extra day because of the holiday Monday last week and I'm really glad that I did. Before my vacation started I had a little list of things that I wanted to do. It wasn't actually written down, it was just stuff I had in my head that I thought I'd get to. The list included reading magazines and books, hooking up with some friends and pampering myself. I didn't exactly get around to those things specifically (what with the unplanned company and all that came with it) but today I did spend some time on myself. I got caught up on a bunch of little things that I needed to deal with around the house and I was able to get my mum's birthday gift together and delivered to her (her birthday is today!).

For the first time in a long time, I feel rested. I'm not exactly looking forward to getting back to work but I'm not dreading it either. In my old job, taking time off during the summer was actually impossible. This year, in my new position, I've been able to book off small pockets of time and it's making for a very pleasant summer so far. Of course, at the end of this month we have the long weekend and then I have another four day weekend booked for mid-September. Add that to the week I took at the end of June, the four day weekend in mid-July and this recent week, I actually feel like I've had a lot of time off this summer. It's been so nice to be able to enjoy the nice weather and get outside in it rather than watching it sail by from a window in my office.

Yesterday we retrieved the LOG from his brother's in Toronto. It was a bit of a whirlwind trip and I was really glad to get home last night. When I met my hunny he was living in Toronto and he moved here to be with me. Everytime we go back for a visit, it just reinforces for both of us why he moved here instead of me moving to TO. The aspects of Toronto that we really love, we can experience whenever we feel like spending a couple of hours in the car. The parts of it we really hate, we don't have to deal with every day. I think we've struck a great balance. Where we are right now too, is the same distance from Montreal and Syracuse as it is from Toronto so we're sort of smack in the middle of it all without having to actually be there.

Over the course of my mini-vacation, I still squeezed in some fairly regular exercise. I'm pretty happy about that. My eating was up and down, as it is when you're on holiday but overall, not too terrible. I'm sure I've gained a couple pounds over the weekend but this week I should have everything back on track. Today, for example, my routine was kind of all over the place but I managed to keep within my calorie range. This is nothing short of a small miracle considering we went to Denny's (of all places) for dinner tonight. Tomorrow I return to my normal routine of regular, scheduled exercise and planned out, cooked at home, healthy meals. The schedule always breeds results so I'm happy to get back to it.

I see no reason why this week shouldn't be just as wonderful as my week off was. It's all about the attitude, isn't it?

Sunday, August 08, 2004

on the road again

Just a quickie this morning. We're heading out the door in a few minutes to pick up LOG. We're not actually picking him up until later on this afternoon but we've got errands to do in Toronto so we're trying to get an early start on things.

The errands should involve much walking around and the weather is looking gorgeous right now. Hope you all have an enjoyable, happy Sunday!!

Saturday, August 07, 2004

naps and sleeping in

If nothing else, I'm well rested this morning. Since the temperature dropped around here a couple of days ago, the sleeping is delicious in this neck of the woods. We actually had to have the comforter on the past couple of nights. I'm just loving this weather!!

Food ended up being not so good yesterday but it was our anniversary so I'm not too bothered about it. Exercise also kind of went flying out the window but I'm planning to do much walking later today. Right now, I'm just enjoying sitting in a sun beam, listening to the Fidelity Wars really loudly, and thinking about whether I'm going to have juice or coffee to start my day off. I've been listening to stuff this weekend, that I was listening to when I met my hunny. The Fidelity Wars, Summerteeth and Utopia Parkway were pretty much the soundtrack of that summer for me.

Today we're going to go buy a chest freezer. We don't really have a lot of room in our kitchen for one but Costco has a 3.5 cubic square foot one that will actually fit into a spot by our back door. We've been getting buy with the small freezer in our fridge but it's not nearly big enough, especially when you consider that we're buying one kind of bread for ourselves and another for LOG. It'll be great this winter for freezing stuff too, like soups and casseroles. I used to have one when I lived in my apartment but it was never right again after the Ice Storm so we got rid of it when we moved into this house in 2000. We have a frozen yogurt machine that we'd like to start using again and now we'll be able to (the one part of it just takes up too much room in our small freezer for us to use it much right now).

Tomorrow the LOG comes home and we're going into Toronto to pick him up. We've planned to make a day of it as we have a bunch of errands to do when we get into town. Today we have some things to do around the house and, of course, the trip to Costco but other than laundry and a pedicure, I'm not planning to do much. I have to say, doing nothing feels terrific!!

Friday, August 06, 2004


Can you hear that?? No? It's quiet in my house. No game show network, no old guy moaning and groaning... just quiet. Wow!! Last night it actually felt a little odd for him to be gone. Not bad odd, just odd. Like that Odds album, "good weird feeling," you know?

So today is our anniversary. 5 years ago today I met my hunny. We deliberately didn't make any fancy schmancy plans because we are just so happy to have the house to ourselves that we didn't feel like we needed to go out for a posh meal or anything. We're pretty much just laze-ing around today. This morning I got up at my normal time and took my hunny to work but, due to a weird set of circumstances, he couldn't work today. It was actually kind of nice, although unplanned. Instead of heading back home, we went out for breakfast (it was, afterall, 6 a.m.) and then, on the way home, stopped off at my folks' place for coffee. When we got home at around 9:30 a.m., we had all kinds of plans for doing errands and "getting stuff done" but we ended up just plopping on the couch and being sloths for a few hours. In fact, I think I'm going to have a nap this afternoon, how decadent huh??

I'm not sure if I'll be squeezing in any exercise today. I know that we're going to be doing lots of walking this weekend so today might end up being a break day. We'll see. Hope you're having a good, lazy Friday too!

Thursday, August 05, 2004

no fries

It's weird how things change around your house when you've got company coming and going. LOG's brother and his kids have been in town for the past couple of days. Fortunately, we've not had them staying here and we've not had to feed them but it's meant that we've been eating out the past couple of nights.

Last night was no different. We met up with them yesterday afternoon and went for dinner. I made very good choices I think. I had a great turkey sandwich and a gorgeous salad of mixed greens and balsamic vinegar. For a few moments I was almost tempted to have some french fries but I resisted. The night before I resisted as well and had a huge salad. It's so easy to induldge yourself in restaurants I find so I'm pretty happy with myself for not going there.

I did another early morning walk here. It's suddenly become very cool and gorgeous and it's great walking weather. LOG is complaining of the cold a bit but I love the weather like this. It can stay like this for the rest of August if it wants to. Anyway, LOG is heading to back to Toronto today with his brother so we're going to have the house to ourselves for the whole weekend. I'm really looking forward to this. It's going to be a much nicer break for us than going to a hotel. It might sound odd but in this particular circumstance, I'd rather be at home in my own bed, in my own house, than in a hotel with over bleached sheets and kids running up and down the hallways!!

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

happy hump day

So far this week, I haven't gotten too far off of my routine. The most crucial piece of that is getting to bed and waking up at my normal times. This morning I was up before the sun. I had to take my hunny to work so I could have the car later on and when I got home, I went for a great walk. It was really misty and hazy this morning as the sun was coming up. There was all this fog in the cemetery up at the end of our street and it looked very cook with the big pink sun popping up on the horizon. The air was really cool and clean this morning too; it was a refreshing change after the humidity yesterday.

Looking back over the past week, I am still feeling good about the numbers. This morning, when I got home from my walk, our connection had improved and I was able to go back over the weekend and update everything in fitday. Except for a couple of days where I went maybe 75 calories over what I normally would have had, I did very well. Given the number of meals I missed last week when I was sick, it all averaged out to be less than normal.

After finishing my calculations this morning, I was feeling brave. I actually pulled the scale out and hopped on this morning. Given that I hadn't done any "proper" scheduled exercise last week when I was sick, I was half-way expecting to see a big gain. Looking at my numbers for last week, that wouldn't have really made any sense but it was something I felt. Anyway, I'm happy to report that I maintained. I was really shocked and feel very good about it. A loss is always better than a maintain but, when you have a week like I had last week, maintaining is excellent!! I'm not holding my breath that I'll show a loss this weekend when I "officially" weigh-in but you never know right?? Stranger things could happen!!

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

adding it all up

Despite the fact that our internet connection is brutally slow at the moment (is this act of quasi-terrorists or is it just our isp?), I've been trying to get myself back up-to-date with fitday. I must be getting better at "eye balling" or something. I sat down and counted every bite that I've consumed for today and yesterday and was sort of surprised by the result. When all was done and dusted, I was actually on plan for calorie consumption for the past two days. I have not yet crunched the numbers for the weekend yet but I'm not sure that they are going to be as good. I know that there was a bit of snacking happening on Saturday that will probably not compute too well. Oh well, at least I'm being honest about it, to myself and fitday anyway. The funny thing is that both yesterday and today, I felt like I had overate. Weird huh??

I've been feeling stronger and stronger each day that I've been off of work. That cold and TOM stuff last week (I almost typed "month" -- it seems that long ago!!) really kicked my ass in a huge way. The "dreaded" company has arrived and it's going well. They're actually quite nice folks. They are staying in a motel up the street from us. We just got back from having dinner with them. We had planned to barbecue but the weather was dicey here today (intermittent rain) so we ended up going out. Tomorrow, they are taking LOG and his brother on a touristy type outing and I'll have the day to myself (we're meeting them at 4:30 after said outing is over).

Yesterday, all day, I busted my ass cleaning. It was that "company cleaning" that you do when folks are coming to your house for the first time. The downstairs of our house is spotless and the upstairs isn't so bad either. It took me all day Monday to get the downstairs done and then the best part of this morning to get the upstairs sorted out. It looks really great and, one of the upsides of company is that at least the house gets clean. Tomorrow I'm planning to finish up my laundry and do my ironing but that's all I really have to do. It's a great feeling knowing that I have the better part of a week totally to myself. My hunny will be here with me for parts of it but that's okay. Actually, it's totally great.

So, to sum up, my holiday is going very well so far and I'm actually even moving my body a bit and eating pretty good. Will wonders never cease??

Monday, August 02, 2004

monday monday

Happy Simcoe Day everyone! Now, I know that not everyone celebrates Simcoe day but we do here in Ontario and today is officially a "civic" holiday.

It's pretty much gorgeous here right now. Yesterday it was really hot and sticky all day long. Even when I was out walking yesterday morning you could just tell that it was going to be a scorcher. We put off doing the yard work until after dinner and I'm so glad that we did. A lovely cool breeze was blowing while we hustled our bustles to get what we needed to do, done. It took us a couple of hours but everything is starting to look really good out there. I still have a little bit of weeding to get to but it won't take me too long. The largest part of it is done already, for now anyway. It's amazing how quickly the weeds are growing. We've got these big funky thistle type plants cropping up all over the place. I've noticed that our neighbours all have them too. I don't remember seeing them other years. We think that they are a by-product of the no spraying thing that our municipality has started this year. They are really annoying more than anything else because one day they are not there and the next day (it seems) they are over 2 feet high. My back and arms are pretty sore right now but it's a good sore, a "hey I actually did some real work" kind of a sore.

I went for another walk this morning. There is something so nice about getting out early in the day when the air is still clear and the bugs are still snoozing. I'd love to take really long walks in the evenings but the bugs drive me inside. They just eat me alive whenever I'm out in the evenings too long. Last night while we were working, they were terrible but I know it's a price you pay for nice weather in this neck of the woods.

My eating has been "okay" the past couple of days. I haven't been tracking stuff in fitday but I know that I'm not going over what I would normally eat too much. Today I'm going to sit down and try to update fitday as much as I can and get that part of things back to normal. Routine keeps me going on this journey and routine is sort of out the window right now. It'll be out the window all week I expect but that's okay. I'm going to work really hard to stick to my plan and get some extra exercise in here and there while I have the time. As I mentioned before, I plan to use this week to do some stuff for myself for a change. I figure I deserve it!

Sunday, August 01, 2004

happy August

Can you believe that July is over already?? Where did it go?? I know that I say that every month but, every month I'm surprised that time is gone.

I'm happy to report that I'm feeling much much much better today. I'm still a little stuffy and am coughing a bit but it's nothing like last week. Part of it, I think, is because I've been moving a bit more. Yesterday I did some exercise in the house and this morning, I got out for an early morning walk. Everything is just green and gorgeous after all that rain we had. It's turning into a scorcher though so I'm not exactly sure when we're going to get our yard work done. The forecast calls for rain tomorrow and Tuesday so we really have to get at it soon. Hopefully a nice breeze will come up soon!

Sleeping in was on the agenda for this morning but both of us ended up getting up around 6 a.m. Now, technically we did sleep in because we're normally up before 5 a.m. so I shouldn't moan too much. It just felt good to be lazy. We woke up but didn't get up until around 7. The LOG wanted to go out for breakfast so we did, around 8:30 or so. The place we went to is about 30 minutes from here but it's always worth the drive. When we got there, the place was full of bikers. Apparently, there was a big HOG rally here in town. The poor folks must have been rained out yesterday and today it seemed like everyone was heading home. It's always cool to see those big groups of motorcycles out on the highways. I'm not sure that I'd be able to drive all across the province on one but it must be a lot of fun for folks who are into it. The meal was really good. I had a gorgeous fruit salad and some egg beaters with toast. It was very yummy and filling and I'm sure we'll be skipping lunch today.

I still haven't figured out exactly what I'll be doing for the rest of the week but I think that's a good thing. Just taking one day at a time seems like a good plan at the moment. At this moment, I think I'm going to go and finish my laundry and figure out when we're going to hit the garden. One upside of all this yardwork is that I know it burns a tonne of calories!